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for what it’s worth I was a hairs breadth away from...

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 00:20:05 -0400

for what it’s worth I was a hairs breadth away from dropping flickr, it was never meant to be a showpiece for what I think are the one or two most marketable frames I’ve shot recently.. or even my favorites of the moment.. I forgot everytime you go to anyones blog or some streams to see perfect toned image after image, lightened midtones and all that jazz that maybe they are shooting something interesting but don’t want to share it because it might mess up their market share

oh it’s not my peeps who do that you know you guys aren’t who I mean but I got a bit cynical and a bit bound up.. figuratively

so I’m seting a goal
I’m crazy busy I know that
I do too much
I need to have fun
and I need to just shoot

so I’m doing pad and I’m setting the goal for 30 days, nothing outrageously long, but I don’t have much time so it may be ACK unprocessed, it may be my toe, it might be a cloud (thank you leonardo) whatever it is it’ll be my own little freeverse art

I had an amazing meeting today with an amazing woman and I’ll tell you talk about someone unplugging me from the matrix.. to my credit I did ask the question and I did take the oh you know how that metaphor will go.. anyway it was syncronicity with some of the other things and thoughts I have going on and I feel good

what do rule followers do when they are given the rule that they have to break them..

Institutionalized Suicidal Tendencies

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 22:47:39 -0400

Institutionalized Suicidal Tendencies

via girlvinyl.com

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 19:04:13 -0400

via girlvinyl.com

The Loudness War (via LoudnessWar) I get 99% of my omg I...

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 23:36:13 -0400

The Loudness War (via LoudnessWar)

I get 99% of my omg I can’t believe it videos from Julia, but this one I stumbled upon myself.. I knew it with commercials but gosh we are messed up.

summing it all up

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 00:00:00 -0400

I’m working on the new copy for my new website and I’m working on myself, and I’m working on combining my personal work and my client work (as much as possible) and in all this working I’m looking and it seems like some people can sum all their stuff up into a few lines, a few likes and sometimes they sound so fucking hip, like, that kinda 2000 something postmodern blogger hipster speak that is, well freaking catchy.. If I could reduce down my meeness to I like the fall and the spring and a pithy catch phrase I would .. but I probably wouldn’t because I don’t believe in that.. I don’t believe in much really except people can’t be reduced to that, people shouldn’t be reduced to that.. and isn’t that what marketing is really, the lovely reduction of whatever it is you want to sell into a demi-glaze, sweet, strong and brief…

I am perhaps to non-descriminating.. maybe .. I don’t think that recycling is going to save the world, though I do it, I don’t think that black and white photographs are better then colour photogaphs, it depends upon the frame of course.. and that’s maybe why it’s hard for me to lay a line and tell anyone I won’t cross it.. I won’t ever only take images in natural light, I won’t ever only take photos with created light, I take photos with the light that is there and I find light that is amazing and I use it.. I don’t always like vanilla, I don’t always like chocolate, I can’t say that organ donation is the only way to go because I was a 16 year old asked to leave my mother on life support for up to a week and I couldn’t do it, I don’t feel guilty about that, I’m a buddist and think any unmindful killing is horrendous but I loved the movie gladiator.. I guess my problem isn’t that I can’t boil myself down, I probably could.. it’s just if I did it certianly isn’t hip, or catchy, it isn’t pithy or wise, it ends up sounding like a beatles lyric, be love.

I want people to be themselves, to grow, to try things, I want a life for me that is open to mistakes and joys and I want to create images that move, that show life’s soul, that show people as they are, and as they are, as they truely are, is beautiful regardless of the light or the processing.. it bypasses space and time, it peels away the layers that we create to protect ourselves from life or living.. I work always to keep those layers, like clingy barnacles, from forming..

It’s so popular right now for photographers to talk about how they shoot “real” “be real” “be you” and then they tell the clients what clothes to wear, and they take them to places they would never go (or it’s editorial and people are either blank Arubus cows or california freepeople young and ‘alive’) and they take their photos and I have been guilty of that.. But I suppose I’m trying, not to make people look like something amazing, but to look amazing as themeselves.. to be really real and know that this is the person their mother, their fiance, their brother, their daughter loves, as they are and that they are beautiful

sum that up in a little sauce…

I better go to sleep I’ll most likely delete this in the morning

Palin’s secret prep card (via Esthr) Why is it that...

Sun, 05 Oct 2008 18:30:51 -0400

Palin’s secret prep card (via Esthr)

Why is it that America isn’t ready for an intelligent, strong, female for office… we have to have the gossipy administrative assistant that’ll turn on you the moment she thinks you may get a promotion she wants…

I mean really, we can do so much better then this, can’t we

"All great achievements require time."

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 16:37:02 -0400

“All great achievements require time.”

- Maya Angelou

Apartment Therapy San Francisco | Look!: Binder Clips Used for...

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 21:09:02 -0400

Apartment Therapy San Francisco | Look!: Binder Clips Used for Hanging Art

Apartment Therapy San Francisco | Look!: Binder Clips Used for...

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 21:08:48 -0400

Apartment Therapy San Francisco | Look!: Binder Clips Used for Hanging Art

Apartment Therapy New York | Tip: Hanging Groups of Artwork

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 21:07:43 -0400

Apartment Therapy New York | Tip: Hanging Groups of Artwork

Abbey Goes Design Scouting » » Hello, Gallery Walls

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 21:07:34 -0400

Abbey Goes Design Scouting » » Hello, Gallery Walls

"Somebody has to do something, and it’s just incredibly pathetic that it has to be us."

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 14:41:55 -0400

“Somebody has to do something, and it’s just incredibly pathetic that it has to be us.”

- Jerry Garcia

Till Death do us I want one of these invites

Sun, 28 Sep 2008 01:31:16 -0400

Till Death do us

I want one of these invites

Chromatics - Running Up That Hill (Kate Bush) / MP3 & Music Blog Song / The Hype Machine

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 22:42:58 -0400

Chromatics - Running Up That Hill (Kate Bush) / MP3 & Music Blog Song / The Hype Machine

jimmy eat world the middle

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 20:55:30 -0400

jimmy eat world the middle

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond...

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 14:44:37 -0400

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel unsure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. As we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

The Beckoning of Lovely

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 22:13:57 -0400

The Beckoning of Lovely

Sukiyaki Western Django Trailer I cannot wait to see this.

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 22:58:34 -0400

Sukiyaki Western Django Trailer

I cannot wait to see this.

"Let your love flow outward through the universe, To its height, its depth, its broad extent, A..."

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 10:55:48 -0400

“Let your love flow outward through the universe, To its height, its depth, its broad extent, A limitless love, without hatred or enmity. Then as you stand or walk, Sit or lie down, As long as you are awake, Strive for this with a one-pointed mind; Your life will bring heaven to earth.”

- Sutta Nipata

‘Drive your dead over the edge…. Take that dead person passing for the living, and just leave them...

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 13:38:27 -0400

‘Drive your dead over the edge…. Take that dead person passing for the living, and just leave them off. In life, don’t be ashes, be the flame…’ Clarissa Pinkola Este

Don Imus And Bernard McGuirk re “Nappy-Headed Hos”

I’m linking to this not at all to bring up the Imus nastiness, though perhaps reminders and thoughtful look backs aren’t so bad. But instead because my son was mean to his cousin last night… first time ever he used language that was nasty and in this article Clarissa Pinkole Este talks so clearly and honstly about the pschological reasons children start or try out tormenting behavior… honestly I have my whole life been on the other end and the one thing I will not allow is my own son to bring up his own shell of nasty. The language the tone, even the laugh, is modled after a neighborhood kid and we made it clear, you do not act like him, or treat people as he does or you will not spend time with him.. and we explained why and we told him we understood the alure but it was false and it would do him no good. Reading this article with what we as parents (and with my sister) were tyring to express, well she of course explains it perfectly. It was like clear rain water to read it, clarity, and renewing my own strength in what I believe is right and wrong and why children torment and how crippled are those who grow up to be tormentors… I over quoted it here because I want easy access to it, the whole article though is well worth a read.

—exerpt —

In psychology of groups, being brutal with others is catching, like an infection. Thuggery and torment by one, are contagions to those who are not immune to ‘joining in;’ to those who are being thoughtless in the moment, who are impulsive, easily distracted, afraid to be thought soft, fearful of being punished or losing some advantage for not joining in, wanting favor for their families, wanting to keep a friend more than wanting to hold to an ethic, wanting to be part of a coterie that calls itself ‘elite,’ feeling pressured to keep up a false persona, or simply not weighing inevitable negative consequences yet to come for those who proliferate the dehumanizing of others.

Children try out taunting one another, and sometimes gang up on one another. However, with adult leadership, they soon drop those behaviors and instead learn civility toward those they have little in common with, and favor an authenticity of friendships with others. Children are thus helped ‘to grow up’ by both peers and adults who notice and invite them to a higher bar. They may waver in learning these skills because they are young and still practicing. But they do learn discernment as they continue to practice.

But, some, for any number of reasons, instead learn to seek excitement in insulting and being cruel… most often for an outer and an inner payoff of some kind. They often try to inveigle vulnerable others to join them in spewing… in part because they take a kind of –not happiness, although they are often guffawing and giggling while tormenting others– but rather a kind of very evanescent security…a security that comes from seeing others add to the roil by copying their own poor treatment of others.

Most often, tormenters and menacers carry a painful secret as well: they cannot bear to be lonely or without the approval of others. Thus they seek like-kind. Somewhere in life, each decided that admiration is not available to or for them. They turn to ‘negative forms of admiration’ that do not satisfy either, but amongst humans, to not be recognized for anything at all is far worse than being a consistent carrier of negativity and a seeker of negative attention.